About Me, Just a little anyway.

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Hello World Wide Web! My name is Heidi.

I have created this site for many different reasons. Like some of you I have lived a roller coaster life. I as a child up to age 7 was just a tiny little thing who was afflicted with horrible tonsils and adenoids. At the age of 7 I had surgery to remove these buggers (first surgery caused a tear to a vein in my nose, which after about an hour of bleeding, led to a 2nd surgery). The best part of the whole event was that once I was able to tolerate foods I could eat all the Popsicles and Ice Cream I wanted (hip hip hooray).

Thus began my life long journey of being overweight.

I’m now 52 and have a laundry list of Health issues that I’m am working with and attempting to change. It is becoming increasingly more understandable as I study and learn about the afflictions I’ve been diagnosed with, that not only myself but 1000’s of people around the globe are struggling with on a daily basis, the symbiotic relationship of these issues.

So let’s take this walk together, join me won’t you? If there is something I’m missing or that you can add do it! In the meantime Welcome one and All.


“Your Pregnant!” Let’s talk about depression…

Symptoms of depression can be marked by strong negative emotions that affect a person’s day to day life for a prolonged period of time. Women who are pregnant are at an increased risk for depression. The cultural expectations when a women is pregnant can be intense, everyone assumes that your going to be over the moon excited, or expecting that it is one of the most Blissful times in a woman’s life. There is a lot of pressure with pregnancy, and for a woman who has battled Major Depression her developing Antepartum depression is greater still.

Postpartum depression is a subject that a lot of us are aware of due to the courage of women who have lived through it and shared their experiences. There is another form of depression that isn’t as widely known or talked about. Depression DURING pregnancy or Antepartum depression, is rarely discussed unlike Postpartum depression. A little know fact about depression and pregnancy is that approximately 14 to 23 percent of pregnant women experience Antepartum depression, while 5 to 25 percent experience Postpartum depression after delivery. Thankfully public health experts are becoming more focused on the high incidence of Antepartum depression and are incorporating screening for depression into a routine healthy pregnancy exam. Encouraged as a first step to discovering any potential problem for both pregnant women and new mothers.

What are potential risk factors with Antepartum depression? Many women have never experienced any type of real depression so pregnancy depression is their first. As with most things in life if a woman has a history of Major Depression this could be a catalyst to Antepartum depression. It is generally believed that Antepartum depression is a result of the accumulative physical, hormonal and behavioral changes one goes through during the course of pregnancy. Risk factors besides a history of depression can be

  • Maternal Anxiety
  • Everyday life stress
  • Lack of family and friends support
  • Pregnancy was not planned
  • Domestic Violence
  • Single or poor relationship

just to name a few. Please remember everyone is different, not everything you and your body go through while pregnant is going to lead to depression of any kind.

How can a woman know if she is experiencing depression or just the typical changes? Fatigue and decreased energy, trouble sleeping, changes in eating habits and appetite, are all routine aspects of pregnancy which is where and why identifying depression becomes challenging. Take time to examine yourself, ask questions like ‘How are you today?’ Persistent, intense feelings of sadness, hopelessness, guilt, emptiness are not what most would feel is normal.  ‘Am I?’ Anxious, angry or frustrated. ‘Do I still enjoy?’ Activities, hobbies, spending time with family and friends. Your response to these questions if concerning to you should be brought to your healthcare provider and together you can find a solution.

Once you know what you are dealing with an answer is generally available that can enable you to make beneficial choices and enjoy this glorious time in your life.

Mothers Day

Hello Everybody;

I want to take a moment and extend a heart felt moment to all of the Women out there who have birthed and are or have raised children. It is a special gift from God to be given the opportunity to have children. I am truly blessed with two of the greatest.

Happy Mothers day to you all including all of the Men who are single parents and doing it on their own.

National “Fibromyalgia Awareness” day.

Today is national Fibromyalgia Awareness Day. Believe you me Fibromyalgia is definitely nothing to be celebrated, far from it! However I do agree with people becoming more aware, so I’m going to talk about Fibromyalgia and the Endocannabinoid System.

The Endocannabinoid System is made up of cannabinoid receptors within your body that work much like the Internet, these receptors enable communication between your brain and the rest of you. When a person suffers from fibromyalgia these signals are changed and thus cause a person to experience extreme sensitivity to say pain. I’ll explain, You know when you get a charlie horse in your calf muscle, how everything has to come to a screeching halt because all that you are is that pain right then and there? Well Fibromyalgia is like that the symptoms eb and flow within you, sometimes your able to cope with a daily pain level of around 5 or 6 then there are the days when the pain smacks you upside the head and your having to function with pain at a 20+ on a 1-10 scale mind you.

What has been hypothesised is that when the already existing CBD in our bodies becomes depleted one could demonstrate a Clinical Endocannabinoid Deficiency  suggesting that Fibromyalgia may be a result of this deficiency. Fibromyalgia is more than just constant pain it creeps into every aspect of a person’s life.

The National Pain Foundation conducted a survey in 2014 of over 1,300 patients of these 30% of the respondents reported having used medical cannabis. More than 390 survey participants reported that cannabis was far more effective compared to FDA approved pharmaceuticals.


62% reported Cannabis “Very effective”

33% reported cannabis “Helped a little”

5%  only said that cannabis “didn’t help at all”


A mere  8 – 10% reported meds like Cymbalta, Lyrica or Sevelle as being “Very effective”

60-68% responded that those drugs “didn’t help at all”

Now in the hierarchy of evidence production a survey is not weighted the same as a controlled trial, but lets also remember that these types of studies are far more difficult to conduct thanks to Big Pharma control over the DEA drug classification schedule. The pharmaceutical giants are afraid of Cannabis because of its relative safety profile and lack of unfavorable side effects often associated with taking FDA approved medications.

What do you think? Personally I have found that utilizing Cannabis as part of my treatment plan helps immensely. Have you used cannabis or CBD to help with your Fibromyalgia? talk to me about it in the comment section.

Some Simple Ways to Help Relieve Nausea

Herbs, flowers, fruits, vegetables and more plant based nutrients abound. We as a country are more readily accepting of a grab and go lifestyle that leans heavily on processed foods, fast foods and yes even the Convenience Store ‘Roller’ foods. This lifestyle can definitely cause upset stomachs, so can things such as stress and of course Morning Sickness. Today I want to talk about foods that can help to relieve nausea. No, I haven’t lost my marbles (at least not all of them). For mild symptoms of nausea eating low fat foods that are gentle on the stomach or drinking certain fluids may help keep the sour stomach, dizziness or cold seats that can accompany nausea from making your day even worse. By no means should you put off seeking medical help in the event that your nausea is severe, for example nausea and vomiting accompanied by severe abdominal cramping, confusion, fainting and for sure Chest Pain, as these may be indicative of a more serious health issue like appendicitis, or heart attack. Ok so on to the foods…

  • Apples– A little fiber can go a long way in helping to clear nausea inducing chemicals from your system. Don’t just go and try to gobble down a an apple and hope to feel better. As with everything in life Moderation is key. Eat lightly to start with say eat applesauce or drink small sips of apple juice over a period of an hour or so. Trust me slow and steady wins this race. Gala apples are a good choice here, don’t have apples, thats ok crunch on some crispy raw vegetables like carrots.
  • Crackers– I hear you, this is advise that is a s old as time, ‘Try eating some crackers” is said to practically every pregnant woman ever… It is true though, foods high in starch like bread plain 0r toasted or saltine crackers can help absorb the acid and calm a sour stomach.
  • Ginger– Ginger is really a very beneficial root, and it is easily attainable and has been used for centuries. Let us also not forget the wonderful flavor, I mean wow. Ginger Ale, Ginger Tea…oh my, my tastebuds are watering.
  • Mint– Just the smell alone may make you feel better, but actually chewing on a fresh mint sprig, sucking on a mint candy or enjoying a cup of mint tea can be quite helpful in getting rid of your tummy woes. No, sorry to say I don’t think themint being used in a mojito will be beneficial.
  • Banana– When a person is vomiting for an extended period you can easily become dehydrated and lose electrolytes like potassium. Bananas are a great source of potassium, not to mention tasty. They are also starchy and binding.
  • Broth, Sports Drinks and Water– Sip on these fluids sparingly over the course of an hour or two. Start by taking a sip every 5-10 minutes as long as the fluids stay down. After about an hour or so if everything is staying with you then slowly try adding the more solid suggestions above.

So do you have any tried and true things that you use to help with nausea let me know.

Are you Codependent?

It is very difficult to recognize this issue by yourself. Jeannette wrote this for her blog and I just had to share.

My Life with PTSD & Bipolar 2

What is Codependency? Do you have it? Wikihow is a great source for understanding and find positive ways of coping.
Written by: Wikihow
Notice if you are codependent. Codependency, also known as relationship addiction, is an emotional and behavioral condition that can affect many different people. If you are a codependent person, you may avoid personal uncomfortable or strong emotions in favor of focusing on another person’s needs.

In codependent relationships, you may focus solely on the well-being and needs of the other person in your relationship and completely ignores yourself, often to your own detriment.

See if you exhibit codependent behaviors. There are a certain set of behaviors that you will exhibit if you are codependent. Your may notice a few or all of these at one time or another throughout your life.

These behaviors include:
A tendency to avoid conflict or uncomfortable emotions, or masking your…

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